2 October
sometimes
we feel so alone
because we feel that no one understands
that no one ever calls
that we are forgotten
we feel so crowded by everyone
always taking parts of you
dragging you everywhere
till you're ragged and worn
sometimes
we say and do things that cut others
although that was never our intention
pushing friendships away
because of a pride that you can't overcome
we love some so much
that we can't see them with other people
so we pretend that we dont care
so that when they're not with you, it doesn't hurt quite as much
sometimes
we're jealous of people we admire
that we hold dear to our hearts
so much to the point where we forget
how great they actually are
we admire someone so much we over ride their flaws
and everytime they let you down
you pretend that it was only an accident, mistake
until you're left in the cold, again and again
sometimes
all of this happens
but you have to rise above
and learn and learn
not to make excuses
not to fall down, drown and never get up
because you know you're better than this.
that you're better.
27 August
will you rescue me?
as i lay weak
warm and incomplete
staying still in fear
that any simple motion will upset the landslide
forever is what is promised
and i hold on
for a better day
i know that whatever i feel now
may not be what i feel tomorrow
knowing everyone
and not knowing at all
direction please, to anywhere i can be free
but not alone
seasons past and they all seem the same
a little empty and hungry
yet things are not the way they were before
something has changed
or is it me?
hold on, grasp onto anything solid
and when it all falls away
just believe
in yourself, or you will fall
and will you ever be able to find yourself again?
16 July
[[Always And Forever by Good Charlotte ]]
Always and Forever
Always Always and Forever
Sitting here and thinking back doing time when I was young
My memories good as day
I'm listening to the dishes cling
You were downstairs you would sing songs of praise
and all the time we'd laugh at you
and all the time that you stay true to us
and I will say
Said I thank you
Will always thank you
More than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you
Will always love you
There’s nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
[[LifeAsAlways xx WaiwaiTse ]]
15/ July/ 2006 ] So we went back to school after three weeks.
And as I sit in the front seat of the car with Nicola in the back,
it always feel as though the holidays didn't really happen...
Over this week I have learnt.
Be honest.
Asking someone how their operation went,
Can make you feel warm fuzzies.
Asking for help is not a bad thing.
Especially if you understand it after complex explaining.
And dodgy diagrams.
Relieving anger by throwing a rubber at someone in your maths class.
Is a good idea.
Running with a blister on your heel results... badly.
However it does earn you a pat on the back from the coach.
Drinking water with Ali and Jenny before you go to sleep.
Certainly helps your skin.
Trying to tame my hair is very pointless. =]
[[BreakingFree by HighSchoolMusical ]]
We’re soaring, flying
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
If we’re trying
So we’re breaking free
You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are
Creating space between us
‘Til we’re separate hearts
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe
[[Hehe I'm the idiot with The Magnifying glass and cockroach ]]
[[TheGelledHairedNerd with her gel and HarryPotterBook =]<3]]
17 June
First Day of Holidays. last night I sat on the floor of my room and wrote some things that I remember.
There are things that I think I have already forgotten.
I think definitely, this semester has been the fastest one I have ever had...
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I remember getting lockers outside the MAST, no more stupid year nine lockers
where you had to wait 5 minutes to get to your locker. =]
I remember Surrealism.
I remember Wearable Art.
I remember eating that big tub of Homebrand
ice cream with a bag of marshmellows and sprinkles mixed in it at
the Village with Hayden and Nicola. =]
I remember the picnic in the courtyard and I tried to juggle
and threw the balls in my face. =]
I remember leadership camp with Jono, the huge tree we climbed,
the bush trekking and feeling inspired.
I remember Buzz with Business conference, the stream in the library,
the tourguide fella and the pizza.
I remember the Maths Competition at Indro State High and spending ages on that triangle problem with Lily.. and eating that huge hamburger.
I remember Youth Alive and the atmosphere, Reggie singing
and in the mosh with Eloisa..
I remember catching the bus with Nicola, buying heaps of food at the shops,
having feasts and walking home.
I remember the 7am tennis trainings where I was the oldest person
there and still the shortest.
I remember getting free cricket tickets from John. And still not going. =]
I remember winning my first and only tennis game.
I remember the games with Higher Ground for Future Focus.
I remember tubing with Ali on her boat with Jen,
Kiki and Bec on the Brissy river..
I remember the Cake Shack with all the shopping, experimenting with fairyfloss, popcorn and cake at Jens.. blowing up balloons.. and finding everything hilariously funny..
I remember the hockey trainings.. that absolutely killed.
I remember mine and Kiki's birthday party. And Lily's. And Katie's. <3
I remember guitaring with the musos, Chalk Chase, taking shots
with Laura the Ant, giving Lily her beautifully wrapped pressie and
dancing in the pool to Run It...
7 May
Hey Yous. Our Birthday todays, Mine and Kiks. : ) Yay. 15 finally.
Yes, we can watch M15+ Movies.. Legally..
; ) Parte! It was good... nice and relaxing.. wandering around the streets writing.. "stuff"..
Ping ponging.. Fooding.. Dvding.. Guitaring.. Instrumenting.. Marshmellowing.. Sleeping..
Hehe yeah.. it was good..
Thanks for all the awesome presents..
Things to remember..
Jennys hole in her jeans..
Amo curled up in the chair.. couldnt get over that.. soo cute..
Singing Boulevard of Broken dreams.. Ahhhlaaa..
RIP poor pelican.
So much food..
Wheee.. fun night. and Morning.
Thanks all for coming. <3 ^ ^
28 April
Death lies on her like an untimely frost
Upon the sweetest flower of all the field.
My Only Love, Springs from My Only Hate?
Shakespeare.
Hey guys..
Haven't written for awhile..
Been tiringly busy..
Sick and Tired of this world
There's no more air
Tripping over myself
Going nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive
And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you
I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside?
Waiting to breathe?
It's alright
Sunlight
On my face
I wake up and yeah, I'm alive
Cause on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you
I was so afraid
Of going under
But now
The weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted
All that I needed
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